There are many things that I could give up. I could give up facials, massages, expensive face products, make up, hair dyed but I don't want to! I appreciate all the things that I spend money on for myself. Maybe that's the happiness lesson; to appreciate what is purchased with my hard earned money! Since I've gone through my saving phase to pay off credit card debt I have cut out other unnecessary things such as Starbucks; I get my hair done every 8 weeks instead of 6; I buy less clothes; get Coor's light instead of wine at dinner.
Emotionally, I could give up the idea that I need to be liked and accepted by everyone. By having this need I sacrifice myself for the sake of being liked. An example would be when I'm out with my friends and I "need" to make sure everyone is happy. Does so and so have a drink? Are they enjoying themselves? Do I need to think of an interesting topic so the conversation stays fun and fresh? These are all the thoughts I have because I feel responsible for everyone's fun. In the end, everyone has fun (I think) and I feel exhausted. I have even blown up at Nate because I am so exhausted at the end of a night. I could also give up the thought that I need to be perfect. I am human and I make mistakes. There, it's out in the open...don't hate me.
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