Yesterday's blog was intense, conjuring up old memories of unhappy times. Debbie says that to cleanse the consciousness we have to release what accumulated within it. She urges us to imagine all the times someone has said something negative toward us. This impacted you in a negative way. Such as "You didn't do that right.", "You made a mistake." etc. It is time to clean that out! Then there are also inner negative thought patterns that have been said over and over to yourself, "I'm not good enough, smart enough, educated enough, pretty enough..." Can you imagine what these bad seeds have done to us over time? How much weight have they bore on our daily decisions?
Exercise:
Visualize what all your pain, regrets and anger look like. Mine is black ball with static. Then, imagine throwing it away and say the following prayer:I give this to you, God, to transform into nectar for my soul. I let go of all that has taken up space in my mind, body and psyche. I give to you all the pain that I've been unable to let go of. Today, I ask that you turn what has formerly been toxic into fuel for my future.
If my life were free from toxicity I would speak my mind in a loving way whenever I needed to take care of myself instead of not speaking up for myself for fear that someone won't like me or accept my needs. I would have an open, fun-loving relationship with my boyfriend. I wouldn't say negative things. I would be close with my mom and sister and be content with my father's passing. My friends would want to be around me because I am upbeat and willing to share myself with them. Life would be sweet, joyful, and peaceful.
Wow. the prayer you said is exacctly what I wanted to happen with all the anger and angst silently building up inside me. Me life is also full of toxic but instead of voicing it out I kept it all inside. Like a time bomb waiting to explode. I have tried all the self help books there is but none seem to work. I am going to get my self a life coach and hopefully he can help me get this out of my system.
ReplyDeleteKeep it up you inspire me.
Hi Ilyn,
ReplyDeleteWhat a pretty name. I totally hear you on keeping in your anger. I have also exploded, at inopportune times, and it has only caused pain in my relationships. I'm glad you are searching a path to release your anger so you can live a happy and peaceful life. You deserve that! I think a life coach can help. I have also found that I read a self-help book, feel good for a bit and then regress into my old way of thinking. I believe self-help books are valuable but only if it serves your needs and you are able to relate the teachings permanently into your life. I have another program that I created that has helped me with my anger. You can check it out at www.PureQualities.com. The program focuses on life-giving qualities such as love, forgiveness, truth, patience and trust. I created this program when I was struggling with my anger and emotions. By practicing these qualities daily they become permanently apart of you. They are easy to practice on a daily basis and it included reminder cards that you can carry with you in your pocket and read through out the day. I found that I had more happiness in my life and less anger. You can sign up for the program for free. Thank you for writing and I sympathize with you.
Charissa
P.S. The Pure Qualities program is Christian based. It does not preach about Christianity and you do not need to be a Christian to do the program. There are some references to scripture from the Bible but it's focus is on the life-giving qualities that I extracted from the Bible's teachings.